Just Not Okay

Life the last couple weeks has definitely come to a halt. I can barely get out of bed. I do get out but not until the afternoon before the kids get home. Fatigue is bad . Going up my stairs wears me out , blow drying my hair makes my arms give out on me. My appetite has declined. My stomach hurts and I’m pretty well nauseous until after lunch or longer. I do have better days where I don’t feel so sick but it’s becoming less and less. Vertigo has also come back.

I try to get out and watch the kids sports ( 3 play basketball and 3 play hockey) . It cheers me up and makes me feel like even though I am not very active, I am supporting them and being there for them. The pain of sitting on bleachers is very hard. My lower back is in bad shape as are most of the joints in my body especially my hands and wrists.

All this of course brings on feelings of guilt. Aaron is once again working his butt off being mom and dad . He really is an amazing husband. He takes really good care of me and the kids. He gets up super early and goes to bed late. He makes dinner if I am unable. Making dinner is my goal usually everyday. That and having a bath.

Prayers are always appreciated. My faith is what keeps me going. God has given us so much to be thankful for. All this sucks but God has given me my life and with or without pain, I am grateful.


4 thoughts on “Just Not Okay

  1. Thanks Tania for keeping us posted! Always in our thoughts and prayers Tania (Erin + kids) ❤ We pray that God will grant you relief from your, give you rest and the strength to carry on. Sending you much love ❤❤ B + H Raap


  2. It makes me so sad that you have had to deal with so much pain for so long. Yet you haven’t wasted any of that suffering. Does that make sense? You are faithful. You are a witness for Christ and you always give Him the glory. Praying for you and I think of you often old friend. 💕

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  3. May God – who sent us the Christ to bear our suffering – grant you joy and strength to go on. It was “I will be okay”, now it’s “just not okay”, but Tania, you are okay. You testify of strength though weak, of love when you could be bitter. May many continue to be encouraged by you: Aaron and kids, family and friends, all who follow your blog, your church family (me too). Receive blessing through His care and rest assured, you are in the thoughts and prayers of many.

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