It’s been one of those weeks where I have had to bite my tongue a few times. I haven’t been feeling great ( what’s new) and I guess I have a bit less patience than I normally have. I’m also going down from the prednisone which causes yucky side effects including grumpiness. This will pass though. I know it will because I can get through bigger obstacles than this.
This week I was snappy at my kids, at my husband, quiet at home by myself because sometimes it just feels easier than facing people in public and trying to be happy.
On Monday , I received an email from someone at my doctors office that was incredibly rude and disrespectful. It left me with a feeling like I didn’t matter. I was just another name in the system. All over an appointment time. It took everything and a whole lot of encouragement from my husband not to reply to the email. My reply was all written out and I would have happily sent it. Instead I chose not to.
The thing is , this person doesn’t know me from Adam. She has no clue how her words were hurtful. Her words made me feel like my fight over the last 2 years meant nothing. That me as a mom and wife means nothing. Most importantly, I’m a human being with a soul not just a patient with a number. Here’s the other thing. She could have just been having a bad day. Maybe her dog died or she got in a fender bender on the way to work. Maybe she is abused at home or has mental health issues that are bogging her down. I don’t know. What I do know is words can hurt and words can heal. I probably should have responded in an encouraging way but at the time the best encouragement I could give her was no response.
So my encouragement to you all is to remember that we don’t know what’s going on in someone’s life . People hold things in. Throw a smile on their face and pretend like everything is alright. Make yours words be kind. Remember that words can hurt and sometimes it’s hard to forget those hurtful words. If you know someone is struggling , let your light shine and use words that will heal and brighten their day.
On the flip side, don’t take mean words too personally. You could have just been the persons punching bag in the midst of a hard day. It says in the bible,
Matthew 5:38 -40
You have heard that it was said, ‘An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.’ But I say to you, Do not resist the one who is evil. But if anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also.And if anyone would sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well.
In the end I think you and I will feel much more at peace with ourselves and that person if we follow the advice of Jesus.
I’m learning to let things go. I’m a work in progress . I’m not perfect and I know that this has been a really good lesson for me. It takes a lot of work.